Time flies, emotions change

Its been a while hasn't it? I'd be lying if I said nothings happened, cause lets be honest every day is a different day; lessons are learned and slowly things around you start to change. Though only you can make the change to benefit you whether good or bad. Lessons are there in life for you to understand certain situations, even though it will hurt and feel like the whole world is against you at first, in time you slowly start to build up a sense of understanding to what's happened.

Break ups are never easy, anyone can tell you that. The moment you start to realise things aren't working is the moment you have to start to realise your own worth again. In a relationship your meant to bring out the best within each other and optimize your strengths and manage your weaknesses. It's like having a best friend but having a more intimate relationship with your partner. I find it so hard to open up to people as I'm so used to the bitterness that unfolds after a relationship, which is my downside. Every relationship happens for a reason- I strongly believe in this, whetehr it breaks you down and tears you apart, there's something within the hurt that will optimize you in the future. Whether it's cheating or lying these are the main elements that blind your judgement when your in your next relationship. Your trust within someone takes longer to give which may seem like you have no faith in them, but it's not like that at all. With every knock on your confidenece is another reason for you to slowly lose faith whether its on yourself or on certain people. I've learnt the easier you give your trust out the easier it is for people to take advantage of your trust.

Coming from a generous and loving family has benefited me alot, I know the value of everything they have and how hard they worked to where they are now. On the other hand the genrous side of my family has seen people take us like mugs and just get what they need out of us and walk away without a care in the world. In the end I wouldnt change the way we are, people see in the end that we just look at the good in people and try to reassure them that things will get better in time.

In the end it always comes down to that one decision, do you follow your head or heart? Your head is the stearn realistic view on the situation at hand and tries to make you realise the implicantions in going back or into something. On the other hand your heart is the more lineiant view trying to give away that next chance and see the positives from the situation. Sometimes pain is a sense of torture; without overcoming it, it gets stronger and harder to go back to where you first begun.